7 months

I am 7 months/almost 32weeks pregnant. I can't believe I made it this far. I have never gone nine months, so I am thinking I may only have one month to go. I still get the evil glares when I park in handicapped ( I have a temporary tag) or use a wheelchair or electric cart. I guess I still don't look pregnant. In fact, one of the women I work with that I hadn't seen in awhile thought I was just bloated! :) I still fit into my regular work uniform which says a lot about how well fitted it is normally.
Ok- so I don't get swollen ankles, and I've only gained about 10lbs- but I feel huge for me. I have so many other things to deal with being on bed-rest and high-risk that I guess I am blessed to not gain 50-70lbs like some of my friends have.

Looking up at life from a chair

When you are in a wheelchair, people treat you differently. Children don't seem to notice. In fact, you are eye level to them and they seem to like it. Adults, on the other had, become nervous and uncomfortable. They talk over your head to those around you.
You become invisible.

I have noticed this before, because I work every day with people in wheelchairs. We are trained what to do and say to people in wheelchairs at my job. But for most adults, this does not come naturally. Someone in a wheelchair is just different, and different is strange. If we look at them they might think we are staring- so it's best not to look at all. Avoid eye contact- yes- that's best.

Yesterday, I went to church in a wheelchair. We sang " If you don't walk as most people do, most people walk away from you, but I won't , I won't.." Like I said before, children aren't uncomfortable with the wheelchair, they just want to ask questions. Maybe the adults should sing that song instead of the children.

I have to admit, that was the reason I chose to be in a wheelchair yesterday- so that I would be left alone. No one would expect me to run around and do my normal church duties. And you know what- for the most part- it worked. I became mostly invisible.